i want my voice back...

yesterday me wif my friend goes 4 karaoke... then im too stressed.. so i just screaming.. shout out... plus make my voice be like a toad... now feel remorse... maybe too scared that i cant see him anymore...

actually i fall in love wif sum1 that not in our world... i know it just a dream... but he safe my life even he just ride a bicycle... plus.. hes not like other man.. he ask me 2 go back although i still want 2 stay there... plus hes looks real 4 me... just like i have seen him b4... im too scared that we wont b together...

should i cry or beg 4 him...? i really want 2 see him again.. maybe hes the prince that i used 2 see b4... but maybe he change a lot after several dimensions... pray 4 me i can see him again in my real life... i know im just 2 stupid.. even i try 2 stop it.. i still love sum1 that only in my dream... plus i never seen sum1 like him b4... and his sweet-scented make me like wanna hug him...

green hornet...

yesterday me wif my friend goes 4 movies... we take a cab... then when we reached there... we still didnt plan what should we watch... just buy any ticket... at 1st i thought that we got wrong cine room... coz the intro seems like censored story.. then only start...

i love kato... he's so cute... if only he not a PERVERT... he sure the most perfect guy i wish... haha... actually we eat a lot b4 the movie... so i cant focus intro... then i got call in cinema... crazy thing i ever do... pick up the phone and ans it...

then we took bus... but seems like the driver didnt want us to stop at the highway... maybe he worried 2 much.... plus who dare enough 2 hurt me? then we eat again... b4 i 4got... on the way home... we almost got in crash... that stupid car just ruin his car... plus kancil 2 pwn xkemek.. but still trauma...

need idea n holidays...

well.. im back as novelist... long time didnt type anything.. but yesterday sum1 said i got talent...coz eventhough that was my 1st writting... but seems good.. n he like to read it...then i told him bout my plan 4 2nd novel... he love my idea...but not sure when i can finish it... coz 1st novel still got some part...

then bout holidays... i really mean it...coz yesterday.. a 'boy' said he love me.. crazy huh... sorry but i didnt like sum1 who under my age... so please stop annoying me or i would kill one by one... XP

really tired bout love.. why they keep torturing my heart n soul... when i said im phobia then i really mean it...

lonely in my own world...

im not sure whether i still have friends or not... im not sure what feeling i had right now...but im very sure i feel being neglected by my friend... they never ask me anything...didnt they know i always try be beside them..everytime they need me... im always there.. but when i need them.. i cant see them... when i try to call... i got no answer... but after sumtimes they finally pick up.. but asking is there any important thing... they too busy for me... suddenly i felt like im just acquantaince to them...not their best friend... maybe im too stupid to understand what kind of world i stay now... i always got bad dreams... and cant sleep... im too worried if everything happen like b4... im not sure whose the real me.. and im not sure how far they know me... as i know they didnt read my blog thats why im dare enough to write.. after i leave my grandma house... sumthing bad happen..im not sure is that bcoz of me or not... she had to live in dark for a few days...

sorry cant update always...

i got problem right now... plus... now im write this at nearest cc... coz yesterday i just run from home... now i dont know what should i do... lucky my bff didnt ask what happen.. coz my family though that i just want a symphaty from my friend...

they said im the one who never want to understand others,..but actually all of us did... i know... dont want to write this story actually.. thats why im just typing this n not the whole story that happen....