boredom..

cant sleep.. =___= why its only me who didnt sleep yet? wake for 3days.. then sleep for 3hours only.. am i monster or maybe alien? even monster and alien know their sleep time.. hmmm..

i hate my bro.. i'll help him a lot without saying anything... but he keep talking bad bout me.. and sumthng i didnt do.. hey.. watch ur mouth! im not playing game 24/7 like u said.. i help ur fb game highscore.. and u got no1 from thousand of ur friend.. and when u call just now, im still googling.. searching for kimono shop in malaysia.. i didnt have visa like all of u.. so i cant buy it online.. so please la.. i need to googling.. all my belongings u use without permission... then u just throw it without knowing that was my precious.. i dont wanna talk anymore.. coz u make me sick..


hmmm.. chat with sam, mie and new friend.. we talk bout morning musume.. gazette.. then bout kimono.. XD IDC.. this raya i must wear kimono.. XD

crazy day n my grandma

huh.. why i call it as crazy day? coz last night i didnt sleep coz my mom ask to ready b4 6.30am... we need to arrive ss25 before 7am.. then 7.30am from shah alam to ipoh.. my mom drive 140-160km/h... we need reach there fast... need to check my grandma.. didnt i told u before? maybe i forgot to type that..

actually my grandma got cardiomegaly.. thats mean heart swollen.. (bengkak jantung) when i look at her, i remember the time she raised me until i've got job.. then i moved out and left her.. live with my mom.. just a few month, she fall sick and cant get up.. i really miss the time we play together.. then she teach me how to paint a beautiful flower... every single flower have its own story.. and they cant b separate with my grandma.. shes must b upset since when we grow up, we always busy with our own world...

everytime i see my shirt, my bag.. i remember her.. she used to shopping with me.. she choose my shirt.. sumtime she paid for me.. im alone now... i miss my grandma.. when will u back to our home? now she stay at my aunt house.. at ipoh.. i want to say i love her just like i love my mom.. but i still cant choose any of u.. coz both of u really mean to me...

i miss my grandma..

post in n out.. XD

wow... long time didnt update my blog.. everything change.. and i dont know how to post.. XD actually more sad story than happy ending.. well.. its always happen in ur life.. if u feel sad, just remember ur not alone... im right beside u.. not beside ur BODY... beside ur heart.. coz i cant enter if u didnt open it for me..


its feel annoying when people treat u like u r his/her bestfriend but they dont even know u.. but when others that u believe in, talk bad at ur back.. its more hurt.. believe me coz i knew how it feel..
my love story? im not sure whether i've got sum1 special or not.. in this few months many things happen..


i met sum1 that make my heart race... and when i fall to him.. he let me go.. i cant understand.. who he think he is? hes the one who said will love me.. but just go when i really in love.. and every guy told the same.. but i believe what girl believe.. guy only like u when u got sumthng they want..


anyway enjoy ur day.. ^__^ and hopefully everyone will get their true love.. to my fb friend.. since sum1 try to sabotage me.. i've delete my old fb acc... but dont worry.. i've got new acc.. ^__^


Dance, dance, until I fall asleep I dance
The tears that do not stop.
Every time I close my heart, telling myself that there is nothing there, it is about to wither.
To the dream that has become thin, I sing once more.
If you will answer that sadness is only oneself, 
It's okay if I get hurt

"Good bye" is blooming on the dream that is supposed to end.

fever,......

huaaa... finally.. im recover from viral fever... huhu.. pity boss and aziz.. hey! got new name for boss.. bubus.. cute right? my bro said cute too.. XD but its a great time... hmm.. coz yan visit me and brought many kinder bueno.. but now still fighting with him.. coz he didnt have time for me. tomorrow im free. hey cant he spend time? TT~TT fine.. bubus.. wanna pasta tomorrow? TT~TT huhu..

yan said im just too special from others... and he ask me to cloe my eys.. then suddenly im recover from my fever and headache... but then he ask me to do sumthng but i dont want to.. it back.. =___= ok i know.. but i cant tell it.. its too complex.. i wonder my past.. what happen before... who should i believe...

hmmm...what else?? cant remember many thing since too ong stayed at bed. but feel alone as i feel like didnt have any bestfriend.. why they didnt even try to call me.. they know i had viral fever.. its ok. yan and bubus take care me.. ^__^ ok la... time to treat myself... finally i meet the meaning of friend.. theres no point if u keep doing good to others while others forget u.. (bubus. my rm100.. ask him for me.)