why i always  check his fb..? i meant yan... i hate to see his name still in relationship with my 2nd fb acc... but if  he remove our relationship.. maybe it will hurt me more.. yan, do u really love me? care bout me? but why did u left me? sorry. i know i was mean to u.. n now.. i cant b like before begging for ur heart.. im wif mrB..

mrB? he treat me well.. just like a princess.. but i dont know how long it can last.. hmmm... now im boycott my fb.. XD why?

1. i always stalk his fb everytime i on9...
2. my neighbour n yan fought at my wall..
3. im afraid one day when he wif other girls.. i would cry in front of him..

DN CREW'S

OMA~~ im wif mrB now.. so please stop thinking bout sum1 that never believe in me!!! sum1 that accused me for sumthing that i didnt do... i know its my fault.. when they said they love me n i said wanna b friend.. i know i should avoid them.. but FYI... i cant hate them just bcoz u feel jealous towards them... i call everyone sayang when im mad.. when i try to teach them.. n i didnt call u sayang coz u got sumthng that i didnt call others!!!


okay.,.. what else? yea.. i see kuro update.. =__=" jealous wif her english,, i wrote this blog like diary that i didnt write anything.. but kuro punya ayat macam english novel.. XD ao? yea i did see her blog too.. comment? no im afraid to comment anything~~ just kidding..

my story la..

 my story

im not in mood.. actually i wanna update after few days im dissapearing myself.. but.. when i check my fb... i dont think i wanna open back my fb.. can i use bm today? ok this is my blog n im allowed...

yan marah dengan post chi yang cakap "ingat cik panda sorang terluka........."  im hurt too.. n die marah macam2 dekat jiran sebelah chi.. sebab status tu jiran chi cakap nampak die merempit dekat kawasan rumah chi... hmmm... chi xbleh balik dekat yan.. sebab die minta putus bukan sekali dua.. da masuk 30 kali tu bukan nye normal.. memang betul, what u do u will get back..sebelum dengan yan, chi asyik patahkan hati lelaki.. tiap kali orang luah perasaan chi selalu cakap chi dah nak mati... takde masa nak bercinta.. and now.. chi dah hampir mati sebab bercinta.. chi xbenci cinta.. but chi benci diri chi yang tak mampu jujur cam dulu...

yan always said that he had never known me before.. yea.. i always pretending.. pretend to b sad n wanna sum1 ask me what happen.. but no one ask.. =__=" but when im really sad n had a problem.. i always smile.. n cry.. but no one know what it means... they just take it easy.. n say, thats her schizo come again.. so what if im schizo girl.. im not mad at all.. but its really hurt me,..

adoiii.. malas pulak nak translate ayat diatas ke bm.. =__=" mrB said what ever happen he always there for me.. but mrB pernah cakap, once i choooooooose yan, he will leave me..n im realise.. i cant lose him too.. fik ade tanya..
"kenapa kau pilih die.. kenapa kau couple dengan die tak nak couple dengan aku"
my answer juz.. "sebab dia ajak couple.. fik tak ajak pun"
"kau suka dia betul2 ke main2..?"
"mula2 main2.. tapi xtaw la cm dah suka..  kenapa?
"macam mana kalau dia tinggalkan kau, dia mati ke ape ke?"

"mula2 terbiasa dengan die di sisi.. tapi dah lame2 terjatuh hati.. tapi biarlah dia tak tahu sebab mana la tahu macam fik cakap, kalau dia tinggalkan chi, xkesah la couple dengan ex die ke.. paling tak biarlah die tak tahu perasaan chi.. sebab chi tak nak rasa sedih sebab seseorang yang bukan milik chi.. lagi pun dia takkan rasa bersalah sebab tinggalkan chi.. bagi die, die xde makna buat chi.. walaupun dia sangat bermakna.."

then xsempat nk panjang lagi.. mrB da balik dr toilet n nk gayut fon ngan chi.. domo arigatou.. sbb fik and mrB sudi nyanyi banyak2 untuk chi malam tu.. (da pagi da pwn.,.) dr pkol 12-5pg duk gayut... XD macam2 lagu ade.. diorang de gak suruh nyanyi.. tapi chi mana rety nyanyi dkat laki.. huhu..

anyway.. smlm g mandy air terjun.. best sangat.. XD coz ary isnin kan.. tak ramai la.. banyak ruang privasi.. then g shopping.. hehe.. dpt new gown.. well.. like all of u know.. chi da xpkai la sluar2 jeans ni... fit sgt smpai xleh jalan... so korang boleh la mintak klau nak.. ikutkan hati nk bagi dai2.. tapi die mesti xmuat kalau chi da rase fit.. XD skunk gadis melayu tak berapa nak akhir.. insyallah tengah kumpul baju kurung plak..

sore throat...

huhu.. sakit tekak.. tak berhenti batuk muntah daarah.. TT~TT last night my friend call me n said ur voice like nuri.. how dare he said me like that.. huhu.. yea he really nice.. but dont know why he still not married.. maybe waiting for the right one~~


then after tired msg wif mr B.. i ask him to call me.. he really worried bout me when keep hearing my cough.. sorry.. i told him im ok.. but he didnt believe me.. not like yan.. everytime i told yan im not well.. he will said.. when i go to ur house, u r fine n plz dont b childish... im still hurt.. mrB said "my mom send her regards.. XD n my aunt said ur cute.." domo arigatou~~ **blushing**

his mom ask him where did he met me.. n he said its a secret.. ok fine~~ i know its not normal thing.. just like when i met yan in fb.. ok3.. what should i write now? hmmm.. yan keep spying me.. how did i know? my neighbour said, she saw him... ok fine.. i hate to say this.. but please remember what u told me before.. u will never believe me.. even if i die.. u will never believe n u never know me.. n u feel glad.. happy.. if im not here anymore.. u will make party if i die! dont u remember? try to remind it.. i wish u see this post.. no matter what.. sum1 tell him my blog links.. i wish he read this.. opppss... sorry.. i almost forgot that u cant even write in english... n how can u understand my fail english?

please stop hurting my heart

i admit.. its all my fault.. coz too stupid.. its not ur fault.. sorry yan.. everyone said ur d bad one n i should not ask u to forgive me.. but its me who always said bad things  bout u.. n bout the picture in disco.. he said.. its all from google.. n he didnt go out wif any other girls.. i didnt check google yet.. coz im too afraid to know what really happen.. he the one who left me.. he should not!!!

now im trapped in this situation.. i love yan.. but i cant leave mr B just like that.. its really hurt.. i cant take it anymore.. i wish for yan.. but im too afraid if he will leave me again... 30 times he left me.. just imagine how stupid i am.. i miss him.. i really miss him.. but i should stop hurting myself... wuaaaaa!!! how if they met each other and began to fight..? Mr B said he would not fight back if that happen.. but i know yan will beat him no matter what.. yan never think before do anything..

mrB.. u just tooooooo sweet for me.. my cotton candy.. my strawberry.. but i still cant forget yan.. how long will u wait..? I'm afraid you're gonna hurt.. but just dont leave me.. no matter what.. coz i cant go back to yan.. or i might hurt again.. anyway.. know what.. mrB said he want to buy couple ring for me.. but better not i said.. coz i didnt wear that things.. =__=" then he said, how bout couple watch.. watch huh? i cant wear it too.. the one that bubus (bos) love to wear.. XD n when he reach home he will msg me.. "eqa, mie teramek jam eqa" XD hehe.. 

back to story.. then mrB ask.. how bout teddy bear.. errrk... yea i want it!! but better not.. i know.. every guy couple wif me or ask me for a date coz they want my money.. but yan never ask my money.. mrB? dont know.. we never go for a date.. =P