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im so bad.. only remember my blog when didnt play game.. yea.. i try to quit back..why? coz theres sum1 that i really love but.... its a forbidden love.. i know im bad.. just think whatever u want.. he already married n have a son.. n his friend said his wife so pretty.. before he propose me infront his friend.. but i know it just a joke.. but its really hurt.. yea.. love not only words.. love not only spend time together.. but love... we need to sacrifice to get love.. i dont know when he said im d only one can make him cry n he think he do love me joke o thats his feeling..

i remember first i tot he is a girl.. coz his char in game girl... but then he is a boy.. n a bit annoying coz keep ask many things.. n he always talk how great he is.. yea.. that was before.. dear.. can u treat me like im d only one.. n im your princess for only 1 day?? i hate it when see u talk wif other girls politely.. but when wif me.. we keep mad at each other n end up wif fighting all over..

remember when u write my fb status at world chat?? again n again, over n over... yea.. love that kind of words.. i didnt use formal english like others.. its too weird if u talk like in book... dont have expression.. thats y i like chat wif karen n charm.. they use english like me.. so easy to talk..

u know when i ask u fight wif me.. n i didnt attack u coz even it just a game.. i still cant kill u.. its hard to fight wif my own feeling.. i dont want see ur blood nor ur dead.. i would rather die than killing u.. thats why i ask u to kill me.. end all my suffer... too many people say love till i dont know which is true love.. but u.. u never told me but i dont know why i waiting for u.. n u said ur wife same like me... always sulking.. easy to get jealous n really love u.. im too slow to hide my own feelings.. everyone can see how much i love u.. i hate when got girl just like me... coz she always hurt herself.. please dont say anything bout her.. its make me more miserable.. im really bad

MrB call me past few days.. he said dont leave him.. n his condition worse lately.. am i bad??  since he know me few months ago.. he start to sick... im not d kind woman which u call angel.. n im not pretty like angel.. u can get anyone u like.. many girls hunting u.. why must me.. please dont say love me anymore..  i dont want anyone hurt.. im not deserved for anyone.. i just need a guy that never threat me wif stupid thing... never touch me even my hands (MrB never touch me.. ) never think im really2 bad.. n never mad at me.. slowtalk i mean.. d one who never say im bad luck.. itd not like i wish everyone around me su wei.. yea.. got guy say im bring bad luck.. but if thats true.. why my friend still get their happiness??

almost forgot.. gratzz to my beloved sis.. she already enggaged.. cant wait d wedd.. =3 seeing her smile make me happy.. n that guy sweet too.. when first storm do their work.. d first thing i see.. he looks at my sis wif a smile.. but my sis didnt notice it.. coz we know sis afraid wif thunder...