I know u will say its normal for me.. coz u dont know me.. easy to hate people n easy to like people...but if u annoying me.. sorry.. thats mean no forgiveness...nice to me.. im nice to u.. once u mess wif me.. u pay for it..this is NOT a JOKE... lately im not myself.. what happen awhile ago? its hurt my head.. please kill me... lately im more sensitive.. even small things i will cry.. why im so weak now? hey.. since when i care who left out from my heart.. let him go.. i shud not let myself down...
enuff what happen b4.. n stop using his name... its really hurts.. he mad at me am i stupid.. yea.. im really stupid coz can fall in love wif sum1 like him.. that doesnt know im not like other girls.. like other said.. easy to use me.. easy hurt me.. easy to make me down...
i tot we really happy b4.. calling each other.. everynight im waiting even i said no.. then last night u didnt call me.. n today u ignore me.. maybe better that way.. just stay away from me.. or i would do stupid things.. yea sumthng like suicide... shud i kill myself? im really tired.. n afraid killing myself.. im not afraid of my life.. im afraid coz i dont know my next world.. n im afraid i cant step d heaven..
he keep blaming me without know... im already shaking.. im almost faint.. he only think himself.. his friend sick.. fine go ahead.. but u dont know.. im really tired now.. looks normal.. but im blood vomit..sometimes i cant breathe.. sometimes im shaking... my head feel so heavy n spinning... i dont know whats wrong wif me.. u never see me like other girls.. u so mean to me.. but not other girls...u more soft when talking wif them... n for u our age really got gap.. is it problem if u old 7years than me? well hello.. u ever heard many ppl nowadays married wif sum1 10-30years gap.. n sumtimes that lady more old.. n for us its normal..
yea i know what u wanna said.. just ignore me.. sure u can choose anyone around d world.. im nobody to u.. like i did to other guy.. im deserve it coz i broke too many heart coz u.. why im so hard.. just accept any guy.. all of them waiting for my answer.. if i keep like this.. i will lose my chance..
am i really looks bad at ur eyes? let me b evil then..
really tired now... almost faint.. i hope he will never know d truth.. ^__^ anything could happen.. i wont die easily.. no one n no result said i will die.. im just weak right? just coz i stop taking medicine? im sure im ok.. 2 times i sleep while typing now.. >_< i dream seeing my own heart.. maybe.. but its weird.. more light.. what i said fire? sakit kepala... n thx to holy coz help me check how it charged calling from here to other country... sure u will jealous righ mr DEER? i hate u...
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im so bad.. only remember my blog when didnt play game.. yea.. i try to quit back..why? coz theres sum1 that i really love but.... its a forbidden love.. i know im bad.. just think whatever u want.. he already married n have a son.. n his friend said his wife so pretty.. before he propose me infront his friend.. but i know it just a joke.. but its really hurt.. yea.. love not only words.. love not only spend time together.. but love... we need to sacrifice to get love.. i dont know when he said im d only one can make him cry n he think he do love me joke o thats his feeling..
i remember first i tot he is a girl.. coz his char in game girl... but then he is a boy.. n a bit annoying coz keep ask many things.. n he always talk how great he is.. yea.. that was before.. dear.. can u treat me like im d only one.. n im your princess for only 1 day?? i hate it when see u talk wif other girls politely.. but when wif me.. we keep mad at each other n end up wif fighting all over..
remember when u write my fb status at world chat?? again n again, over n over... yea.. love that kind of words.. i didnt use formal english like others.. its too weird if u talk like in book... dont have expression.. thats y i like chat wif karen n charm.. they use english like me.. so easy to talk..
u know when i ask u fight wif me.. n i didnt attack u coz even it just a game.. i still cant kill u.. its hard to fight wif my own feeling.. i dont want see ur blood nor ur dead.. i would rather die than killing u.. thats why i ask u to kill me.. end all my suffer... too many people say love till i dont know which is true love.. but u.. u never told me but i dont know why i waiting for u.. n u said ur wife same like me... always sulking.. easy to get jealous n really love u.. im too slow to hide my own feelings.. everyone can see how much i love u.. i hate when got girl just like me... coz she always hurt herself.. please dont say anything bout her.. its make me more miserable.. im really bad
MrB call me past few days.. he said dont leave him.. n his condition worse lately.. am i bad?? since he know me few months ago.. he start to sick... im not d kind woman which u call angel.. n im not pretty like angel.. u can get anyone u like.. many girls hunting u.. why must me.. please dont say love me anymore.. i dont want anyone hurt.. im not deserved for anyone.. i just need a guy that never threat me wif stupid thing... never touch me even my hands (MrB never touch me.. ) never think im really2 bad.. n never mad at me.. slowtalk i mean.. d one who never say im bad luck.. itd not like i wish everyone around me su wei.. yea.. got guy say im bring bad luck.. but if thats true.. why my friend still get their happiness??
almost forgot.. gratzz to my beloved sis.. she already enggaged.. cant wait d wedd.. =3 seeing her smile make me happy.. n that guy sweet too.. when first storm do their work.. d first thing i see.. he looks at my sis wif a smile.. but my sis didnt notice it.. coz we know sis afraid wif thunder...
i remember first i tot he is a girl.. coz his char in game girl... but then he is a boy.. n a bit annoying coz keep ask many things.. n he always talk how great he is.. yea.. that was before.. dear.. can u treat me like im d only one.. n im your princess for only 1 day?? i hate it when see u talk wif other girls politely.. but when wif me.. we keep mad at each other n end up wif fighting all over..
remember when u write my fb status at world chat?? again n again, over n over... yea.. love that kind of words.. i didnt use formal english like others.. its too weird if u talk like in book... dont have expression.. thats y i like chat wif karen n charm.. they use english like me.. so easy to talk..
u know when i ask u fight wif me.. n i didnt attack u coz even it just a game.. i still cant kill u.. its hard to fight wif my own feeling.. i dont want see ur blood nor ur dead.. i would rather die than killing u.. thats why i ask u to kill me.. end all my suffer... too many people say love till i dont know which is true love.. but u.. u never told me but i dont know why i waiting for u.. n u said ur wife same like me... always sulking.. easy to get jealous n really love u.. im too slow to hide my own feelings.. everyone can see how much i love u.. i hate when got girl just like me... coz she always hurt herself.. please dont say anything bout her.. its make me more miserable.. im really bad
MrB call me past few days.. he said dont leave him.. n his condition worse lately.. am i bad?? since he know me few months ago.. he start to sick... im not d kind woman which u call angel.. n im not pretty like angel.. u can get anyone u like.. many girls hunting u.. why must me.. please dont say love me anymore.. i dont want anyone hurt.. im not deserved for anyone.. i just need a guy that never threat me wif stupid thing... never touch me even my hands (MrB never touch me.. ) never think im really2 bad.. n never mad at me.. slowtalk i mean.. d one who never say im bad luck.. itd not like i wish everyone around me su wei.. yea.. got guy say im bring bad luck.. but if thats true.. why my friend still get their happiness??
almost forgot.. gratzz to my beloved sis.. she already enggaged.. cant wait d wedd.. =3 seeing her smile make me happy.. n that guy sweet too.. when first storm do their work.. d first thing i see.. he looks at my sis wif a smile.. but my sis didnt notice it.. coz we know sis afraid wif thunder...
dumb girl
long time didnt update any story.. why my title like that? coz thats me.. how stupid i am... before as u know i play MMORPG..then already quit 2weeks ago.. last night my bro ask to play while he in other guild.. qbayy try to pursue me.. coz today we will merge again.. today S20-S21 will merge wif us S22-S23..
but last night bcoz of my stupid react.. everyone know i really love him.. im too shock.. all this while he never told me.. he already married n got son.. i dont know why suddenly feel so hurt.. he should tell me earlier.. all his fault.. pleaase tell me all his fault!!! he already know i fall in love wif him.. he should tell me earlier.. not keep using love words till i really cant b helped.. yea.. i love him n all his love word.. saying that he found a girl that he need... but all thats just a lie.. he really trick me..
he said thats d only way to get know me better.. to help me.. but thats not solution.. thats disaster.. yea i know before im too negative.. but when he beside me.. he turn my world.. now i know why he keep asking me search the right guy in my real world.. he cant bear seeing me cry when i already found out all this.. i check his pic.. why im so stupid.. didnt notice that ring..
he a bit mad when he ask me doing what, i said flirting wif peys.. he doesnt like me wif peys o lhei.. but he keep asking me to find anyone.. its all his fault.. why he said yes when i ask.. he should say no.. jas told me.. im too good to b mistress... so just forget him.. but i cant.. i really did... i did fall in love.. u all i need.. he doesnt know.. yea.. i know that come from our fav song.. just change it a bit..
wuaaaa.. im so shy now.. everyone pm me dont b sad.. must b charm told everyone i love him.. now i know who d only one he told i love u.. why its so hard? hes not too good.. plus many guys will do anything for me... why im always like this.. please dont say u love me when ur not.. please dont talk like u my lover.. but let me call u my pet.. n im still ur "MY DEAR"... maybe its hurt.. but i cant bear seeing u wif anyone else.. so let me keep this feeling till i found my new sum1... today merge.. plus peys said will buy capsule gender.. n myth say but break up pledge.. so i should think forward.. many guy will do anything..
asssss... dont ask me.. n all.. sorry lagi galau.. erk.. galau is bahasa indo.. i learn it from him.. so please.. im still malaysia.. just im too great.. can use many language.. philipines also can try.. got many friend there.. =3 they still human.. no need to say that country bad, that country nice.. coz thats our country.. everyone see our country bad coz ppl in that country.. so please dont start a war.. coz i fall in love wif ur ppl from ur country.. but bcoz of some ppl that keep mention different.. we cant b together.. is it important whether u malay, china, india, indo, philipines? is it important if u rich o poor? dont have car, dont have house..? ok better stop.. u wont read all this.. i know..
but last night bcoz of my stupid react.. everyone know i really love him.. im too shock.. all this while he never told me.. he already married n got son.. i dont know why suddenly feel so hurt.. he should tell me earlier.. all his fault.. pleaase tell me all his fault!!! he already know i fall in love wif him.. he should tell me earlier.. not keep using love words till i really cant b helped.. yea.. i love him n all his love word.. saying that he found a girl that he need... but all thats just a lie.. he really trick me..
he said thats d only way to get know me better.. to help me.. but thats not solution.. thats disaster.. yea i know before im too negative.. but when he beside me.. he turn my world.. now i know why he keep asking me search the right guy in my real world.. he cant bear seeing me cry when i already found out all this.. i check his pic.. why im so stupid.. didnt notice that ring..
he a bit mad when he ask me doing what, i said flirting wif peys.. he doesnt like me wif peys o lhei.. but he keep asking me to find anyone.. its all his fault.. why he said yes when i ask.. he should say no.. jas told me.. im too good to b mistress... so just forget him.. but i cant.. i really did... i did fall in love.. u all i need.. he doesnt know.. yea.. i know that come from our fav song.. just change it a bit..
wuaaaa.. im so shy now.. everyone pm me dont b sad.. must b charm told everyone i love him.. now i know who d only one he told i love u.. why its so hard? hes not too good.. plus many guys will do anything for me... why im always like this.. please dont say u love me when ur not.. please dont talk like u my lover.. but let me call u my pet.. n im still ur "MY DEAR"... maybe its hurt.. but i cant bear seeing u wif anyone else.. so let me keep this feeling till i found my new sum1... today merge.. plus peys said will buy capsule gender.. n myth say but break up pledge.. so i should think forward.. many guy will do anything..
asssss... dont ask me.. n all.. sorry lagi galau.. erk.. galau is bahasa indo.. i learn it from him.. so please.. im still malaysia.. just im too great.. can use many language.. philipines also can try.. got many friend there.. =3 they still human.. no need to say that country bad, that country nice.. coz thats our country.. everyone see our country bad coz ppl in that country.. so please dont start a war.. coz i fall in love wif ur ppl from ur country.. but bcoz of some ppl that keep mention different.. we cant b together.. is it important whether u malay, china, india, indo, philipines? is it important if u rich o poor? dont have car, dont have house..? ok better stop.. u wont read all this.. i know..
stupid feeling
such a long time didnt update my blog.. all coz busy playing MMORPG.. geez.. im back to online game... what game? Crystal legacy.. yea.. at first i join only few ppl from my country.. n most conquered by indo player.. they keep donate money.. till b strong..
then said wanna stop but keep playing.. n i start to forget my real life.. n i know.. i fall in love again.. why i always like this.. easy fall in love.. his char still a girl.. but he never understand me... i dont need anything.. i just want he see me d only one.. is it hard? i know.. it just a game.. before got player ask me date i used to say, this just a game.. dont b serious..but now im d one who feel like dummy..
i feel alone now... no friends.. no more lovers.. yan propose me before.. but i reject him.. am i stupid? i always want but why i reject him? its weird.. im not d one i used to b.. i already forget what d meaning of life.. just wanna die.. im too weak to move alone.. hey remember when a moon cry.. stars will come n wipe moon tears? but i didnt see that star.. maybe im lost at d end of world.. which no stars.. which no living things...
my heart.. its hurt back.. just like when joey say he love me.. why its always like this.. is it really hurt when someone take ur heart away? i dont know.. why keep saying love.. i cant reply all of u.. i cant chose... yea.. lately peys nice to me.. i remember first we met his pet kill me.. then i said want quit.. i thought hes a girl.. he actually a nice guy.. since that day.. he keep saying "shiro cinta hati peys" ya.. i like that words.. sweet.. but i cant say no to qbayy.. even just in game.. i know i like him..yesterday he ask me.. whether i love him o not.. like usual i said.. no this just a game.. but i like all.. then he start sulking.. yea i lie.. i like him more.. but i hate this feelings...
tonite? yea me fight wif qbayy again.. this time coz i got stupid bro! i hate all of them.. they leave me.. nevermind.. i know im strong.. i can do alone.. im not crying,,im just too tired..but i really mean it.. i love u my dear.. but youre not mine.. n im not urs..n we got diff country too.... my friend wont allow me dear.. i really love u..
then said wanna stop but keep playing.. n i start to forget my real life.. n i know.. i fall in love again.. why i always like this.. easy fall in love.. his char still a girl.. but he never understand me... i dont need anything.. i just want he see me d only one.. is it hard? i know.. it just a game.. before got player ask me date i used to say, this just a game.. dont b serious..but now im d one who feel like dummy..
i feel alone now... no friends.. no more lovers.. yan propose me before.. but i reject him.. am i stupid? i always want but why i reject him? its weird.. im not d one i used to b.. i already forget what d meaning of life.. just wanna die.. im too weak to move alone.. hey remember when a moon cry.. stars will come n wipe moon tears? but i didnt see that star.. maybe im lost at d end of world.. which no stars.. which no living things...
my heart.. its hurt back.. just like when joey say he love me.. why its always like this.. is it really hurt when someone take ur heart away? i dont know.. why keep saying love.. i cant reply all of u.. i cant chose... yea.. lately peys nice to me.. i remember first we met his pet kill me.. then i said want quit.. i thought hes a girl.. he actually a nice guy.. since that day.. he keep saying "shiro cinta hati peys" ya.. i like that words.. sweet.. but i cant say no to qbayy.. even just in game.. i know i like him..yesterday he ask me.. whether i love him o not.. like usual i said.. no this just a game.. but i like all.. then he start sulking.. yea i lie.. i like him more.. but i hate this feelings...
tonite? yea me fight wif qbayy again.. this time coz i got stupid bro! i hate all of them.. they leave me.. nevermind.. i know im strong.. i can do alone.. im not crying,,im just too tired..but i really mean it.. i love u my dear.. but youre not mine.. n im not urs..n we got diff country too.... my friend wont allow me dear.. i really love u..