i know this title might make u wonder.. what kind of hurt that i mean.. not that injured person or what.. just.. my heart... the crack seems like more than before.. and i wonder... what happen once it broken? can i get new one? and if i can where i can get it?
i just can't stop crying now as im at the end of decission.. my grandma keep talking bad bout my mom... ya i know she just stupid to make decission.. and i try to talk it with her already.. so why cant my grandma stop hurting me with those words... why every guy keep hunting my mom but they never appreciate her..? i know it seems like my illness come back... but i dont know why...
just now i just call ai as she ever said that i can call her if i got problem.. and i just cant stop crying..telling her every single of my story... im not begging for symphatize.. but i just hope sum1 hear me... i just hope that i got sum1 to rely on... as my cat died a month ago and i dont know to tell all those story to whom.. maybe kinda weird for u to hear bout me speaking wif those animal.. but i just feel comfort with them.. not like human..they make me nervous... as im gonna faint if they say hi to me...
then i tell ai bout yan.. i think thats the end of our story.. as im seeking for true love.. love that eternal.. as im dead its still alive... not like yan.. he doesnt care bout me... and that makes me remember ai use to told me, there got 2 people.. the pretty one that everyone admire cant find her love as she dont know who really sincere towards her... as the other one with ordinary figure will get true love easily as the one who will be with her are the sincere one and accept you for who u are..
and i hope that im in ordinary one.. but now i dont deserve both as i keep coupling and hope that i can find it soon.. but now im realise.. everytime i fall in love with sum1 that i thought my best friend... and i just hope one day i will get sum1 that just ordinary.. as my mom said.. dont get handsome boyfriend as everyone will adore him.. but i think it would never happen as why should a handsome guy hang out with me?
hey.. i type too much? sorry... oh ya.. if yani read this.. aida really hope u can do shopping with us.. and fasting together... huhu..
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- chiyo ♫ shiro
- im not a simple girl... plus im too complex 4 others 2 understand... love typing hate talking... thats me... u can speak english, malaysia n any language that u think i can understand...
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3 comments:
sori yer ... aku mmg x leh nk shopping ngan korg.. :) ape2 sabar kay manusia mmg x pernah puas hati dengan segalanya.. kadang2 hal mcm ni la yg buat aku suke ckp sorg2. :)... peduli apa org kata kita tetap kita... keep up your life... perjalanan kita masih jauh...
Shiro~ yazela here. why your entry look so sad.. nak tau tak, you are special with your own way, lantak la orang nak kata apa pasal kita. Asalkan awak jangan jadi orang lain, and i think apa yang you dekat internet ni, ialah diri awak yang sebenarnya. Inside of you yang belom lagi treasure. So dont give up dekat diri sendiri girls. :)
xpe la yani.. paham2... ko jangan cakap sorg2 wei.. kite xnak ade kwan kite duk kat tanjung rambutan.. :P
yazela...tq.. dkat internet lebih mudah jujur as orang xkenal.. ^__^
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