miserable feelings....

I always hope that i never born in this world.... i never feel happy nor satisfied...my life too complex n miserable... im not strong enough to face this attempt...sumtimes i feel like wanna kill myself... but im not dare enough think bout one of biggest sin...

then i feel like i should get out from this home... not home actually just a place 4 me.. didnt mean anything to me.. i cant remember how many times i run away from my home... but 4 sure...i wish i can go as far as i can... n live at a place that no one know me n my past....

thats my family prob..then my friends... sumtimes i feel like they not my friends... i always try my best to be with them when they need...but when i need sum1...theres no one beside me... plus im tirep pretending stupid eventhough i knew every single thing... im not sure what kind of brain i got... i know much thing that i never learn... im not sure why ancient story are too strong in my mind without reading..

back to story...i got nobody in this world... they not my family, my friend nor anyone 4 me... then just my acquaintance... if they really my friends nor my family they should know me n always care bout me.. if they didnt respond thats mean they not my friend... if they got many time to update their blog, why didnt have time to read my story? hate all of u... dont lie anymore coz u only make me suffer...