i feel so distressed... just like gazette said.. distressful and coma.. im going to coma in just a while.. what happen? should u ask? yea u should coz i didnt story it yet.. i know i should straight to the point...

actually..yan and i... broke up... for 29 times.. i hate to say this.. coz we cant get along anymore... hmmm.. its ok.. thats mean we're not mean for each other.. kuro.. daidai.. i wish both of u here.. like im still innocent kid... like i never get serious in love.. when i still hate boys..

hmm.. i really love yan.. i knew that.. but i hate him in the same time.. coz my bro hate him.. they always fought.. n i cant stop remembering.. the words he will take my mom blood and pour it at ...... i cant say it.. i really hate to say it.. coz i really love him.. i do.. i wish he is the last one.. but hes not.. B said he will accept me no matter what.. i msg him just now.. i said.. i dont wanna live anymore.. i wish to end my life.. but B make me laugh.. he said.. if i dont stop crying.. i will have beard.. then being a goat.. how dare.. TT~TT but then he ask.. "dah mndy ke blom?" XD then he say im stink.. ok fine.. i already take my bath.. so u cant call me stinky..

he ask me whether i wanna b his partner... his cousin (fik) will b witness.. then fik really wish im wif his cousin.. b4 this he said im stupid coz still wif yan.. hmmm.. i dont know.. i really do love him.. but he really mean.. i wish for him.. but he choose to leave me forever...