mood = tension + sad

well.. yesterday im just too tension... plus i can see many things that other didnt see... im just too afraid when it come near me... so im just shout dont follow me... but then i realise not only that thing... but also my friend... feel uncomfortable when all thing comes near me... 


then i shout at my friend... i leave them... im not sure what i do... but actually i hope they come to help me... coz i got acrophobia... i thought that my leg wont be useful that time... coz i cant feel my leg anymore... its like paralyzed... and that time i cant control my heart anymore... i just cry as much as i want... worried bout my mom... then remember bout past...

actually when we reach pizza i ask my friend to say that i should not afraid bout past as i didnt do anything wrong... but then she just say im the one who should be blame on... she know bout that... but still ignore my feeling... dont she think her best friend like i do? then i realise... best friend cant b sum1 that u always trust... but best friend should b sum1 that always make u feel calm and always there beside u when u need... 

im just too dumb when i said i love to b friend wif them coz they are good and never said sumthing bad... but then i remeber what i see b4... although my brother friends keep say bad thing... but they always help my bro... when they got call.. they will lend a hand as soon as possible... but i didnt have any friend like that...

the worst day i've ever had...

1st i should listen to my heart... i know my instinct never let me down... but still i try to grant any wish 4 my friend... im so stupid coz still want 2 buy 8.45pm ticket whilst i can choose 7.15... then in cinema they get wrong story 4 us... we should watch im number 4 yet we got "the right" story... when we want to get back home... its already 10.42... lucky there still got bus... but then.. we stuck in the middle... know what...feel like wanna kill some one...

that stupid idiot drunk man just suddenly touch my shoulder... feel irritating... hate sum1 touch me even i know them... they didnt unfit to touch me... who am i and who are they.... should i buy them a mirror? please dont ever dare to touch me if u dont have a good traits.... u wont b my friends... only sum1 wif a good attitude n know how to think rational n realistic... dont just think from 1 side... think until the end even u still not sure what happen...

then b4 that... i meet foreigner... then they not so good in english, so do I... they keep speak in their language... pakistan or arab maybe... im not sure.... actually i didnt have any intention to help them... but then feel sorry 4 them... so i try to help them...almost every1 didnt know how to get to their hotel... =_="

many more... but im not in mood 4 typing... so wait 4 my mood... then i will wrote more....

mood : happy

today.. after 2weeks didnt go to driving class.... lucky my skill still ok.. my trainer said... "u always didnt pick up my call and only learn 2 weeks once...." haha.. well.. feel lazy to learn... my test will be this wed... anyway... today im happy coz first time i pass 3point... ^_^..

but only once.. well.. still can try tmrrow... wish me luck... its hard to learn all by myself... my mom got auto car.. so she didnt allow me 2 learn... shes too afraid that i cant drive manual car... =__=" my friend lucky... coz their got parents who can support them in everything... eventhough they cant learn it by themselves... still their parent can teach..

dont think that i pay my trainer 4 teach me... he keep let me drive alone and chat wif his friend... =_=" maybe my BFF like that 2... pity her coz our trainer keep asking do it properly... he say im naughty n playful... when did I?? his fav words... "Nakal betul..."

My Holiday... (Ipoh)

haha... actually b4 gp i just cant imagine best part of my day... but everything change... coz not only me n my parent... they take their adopted son with us... he keep bullying me... now he's one year n half.. but can talk and walk already... he learn too early than other kids...

he keep following me.. but when im following my mom he keeps screaming... annoying.. he too jealous wif me... bcoz im more cute + good in everything than him.. =P

then i cant stand everyone back up him... hey... im a victim now... grrr.... then he steal my books... and now it looks like one of ugliest book in the world... didnt he know how much i care bout my book condition?? then at there i buy new headgear for rm20... my aunt n mom said it such an expensive coz they can get it rm3... its a hand made... what i care bout price... i care bout quality...

better than that kid.. buy many toys... but what for? nothing good wif him... =_="