dont talk to me if u not good enought.

why i said like that? coz sum1 try to attack me and scams me at fb.. well.. i dont know what should i do coz they juz too stupid to ask why i did all that... im not like them. religious people.. and i know how to talk wif people that have social problem.. not simply accuse them.. feel so sad for them... they said that im just make everyone got more sins plus i never success to help others.. but they never see what others people said... they talk bads bout me not just in my page.. but a web.. and i dont know.. they threat me wif newspaper..

i hate when people keep searching for me.. feel uneasy.. and im not strong enough to back up all of them.. feel so sorry.. plus after that night.. my lappy broken down.. maybe its mean that i should stop helping others and think bout my life... those religious people said bad thing.. and everything they type should b delete.. why? coz they said sumthing that we never thought.. sumthng that only those who wild kids know.. and i just can see and delete.. im not cruel like them to spam others messages.. but i dont know.. i just hate the way they talk.. including calling me dog..

then i call ai.. lucky shes futher not so far.. so she back for tomorrow.. (saturday) and she heard every story that i told her.. lucky she understand me well.. and i juz cant control my feeling that time.. so i just cry at kfc.. feel so embarassed..but i cant hold it any longer.. and sumtimes i think that they not good enought to say thing like that to me.. as i know, they use rude speech while i never use that wif them.. or should i?

plus i think i should futher now.. coz everything seems nothing to me.. i dont know my own way.. i dont know what i would do after this.. but yan said he wanna get married.. wif whom? ^__^ oh ya.. maybe i will delete my acc fb.. coz that what ai and my mom ask to.. really feel sad that i will left my name... yeah.. i used it since form1.. how can i change it?

story again and again

ehem2..a very good morning to... (sorry.. wrong speech) hello, well.. actually what should i write yea? hmm too much pressure at kapel.. got girl with name sumaiyah, but she speaks just like ***** why i said that? coz he use rude words and she said that she wont ask for forgiveness from others.. then i just can said, its up to her, not my problem if she got sins with other for talking bad. and she said many thing bout me.. but my Arissa save me. just everyone keep asking me to remove arissa as admin. sshe banned that girl.

then i admin page curang back.. coz beby said fad gonna to dismiss that page.. i cant let it.. coz it his first page.. plus he the one who used to help me before.. and yan.. he call me.. and ask me to sing a song.. of coz i didnt.. XD

and haziq.. he seems like not the same haziq that i used to story before.. his word more tooo depressive.. really worried bout him.. hey! not bcoz i like him before, just he my bff okay.. he always with me when im sad.. anything happen? i dont know.. wish all d best for him..

then ah seng.. he the one who make me think.. am i still kids? errr.. he said "musang! kau xtitow lg kew? esk xskola kew?" wif gedix spelling die tnye.. TT~TT hey im 18.. and im not old coz u d one who 5 years more olders than me.. oh indahnya bahasa..XD he thought that im same wif clement..

lovely days

heee.. why i said lovely? well yesterday, i tried to call him.. but didnt talk anything. then after saying hello for 3 times... he end the call.. then that night i sms him said "awak kalau marah jangan lama-lama nanti saya rindu. sori ek, mula dari 0-0" then he said, he just tension coz too much work and didnt get enought rest. he said he will send me msg when he finish his works.. but ill wait till no more night.. TT~TT but then 2pm just now i call him.. he just back.. he said, he miss my voice... i said his fault suddenly got mad at me till both of us miss each other voice..

i dont know how long he can hear my voice.. suddenly i remember koe wo kikasete.. in english let me hear your voice, well i dont know why he too fanatical my voice.. XD crazy meyh? when will all this end? how long i have to wait? sometimes im just too worried coz im not sure if he okay or not..

then just now i just write all his messages.. actually not all.. just half.. errr.. continue after this.. but i will finish it.. actually still on page.. hehe.. hey forgot, just now i know one secret from my bro.. big secret which my family keep asking me bout him.. since he keep telling me everything he do. and he believe in me.. but still its wrong.. should i keep it as secret or tell the truth? but i love my bro.. i cant let anything happen to him.. TT~TT im too stupid to make decission..

back to single feelings...

well.. my bad coz using my broken bahasa.. he thought that i didnt like him and think that he such a big liar and womaniser.. well i never said that.. and i never mean that.. i dont know where should i write all bout my feeling.. i thought that hes the one but now.. finally i wake up from my sweet dream..

i dont know how i should write it.. got fever suddenly.. and cant breathe at all.. yea, he never know since i never tell him bout my blog and i cant tell him.. coz too much secret..he make me love him, he stole my heart and he leave me.. he said just let him die but didnt he remember sumthing bout my words? if hes the one who will die tomorrow, then thats not him, but me, coz im willing to replace him as im not like others.. i cant do anything.. and im usefull...

stupid! i just fall in love with u.. cant u see my tears? of coz u cant, ur blind to see my heart..why i cant write in malay language? why i never get A or B for bm test? i cant write many piece words but still i cant use it in my words.. i try to practice my bm every single day.. but then i still cant write it.. ai.. i wish u were here to transslate my feeling towards him..

i got chat messages, but from his friend.. he throw away his lappy, then thats mean he hate me just like he hate his lappy.. why i said that? coz he didnt want to see me anymore.. and everything make him remember bout me.. how did i know? coz i see him using my heart.. not my eyes.. and i feel everything using my sense... well thats okay.. i had fever now.. so better sleep.. i just wish tomorrow never comes since im too afraid to wake up from yesterday dreams..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=blQ0TP4nuIY

im in love wif u fool!!

cinta chinta chenta

feel like didnt wanna type anything.. but then i have too.. remember.. they still stalk me and need to know about me they get out from this place.. TT~TT well.. this morning sumthing bad happen.. well almost  argued wif yan. coz sum1 ask me bout my relationship wif yan.. and i know shes not anyone else.. then i call yan ask him whether he know bout her or not.. and he said he dont know anything...

so i decided to check every single evidencce.. then after checking all their message i found 3 evidence that he know her.. well maybe that was just old story.. i still have to believe in yan..why? coz.. i dont know.. just i dont want silly mistake happen in my life.. but dont worry coz yan already scold her.. maybe she wont attack me.. but how if she block my fb acc? TT~TT

then banyak gak la nasihat yang dicurahkan.. coz kitsuo mintak.. so agak jiwang la..then he keep saying, ibu boleh jadi penulis hebat.. errr.. like that words.. but ada ke majalah nak amik kerja? miss shiro aka mesin typewritter.. rindu nama tu.. XD then beby and fad keep ask me too see their edit pic couple.. well.. mulanya berat.. but bila lagi nak bagitahu.. so i just said.. couple tu sebenarnya haram.. lebih elok bersahabat dan bila cukup duit barulah kita jalinkan ikatan.. ye la.. chi bukan baek sangat..

actually chi ngan yan tak dikira pasangan kekasih.. coz dah bincang dari hari pertama.. lagi pun dah frust bercinta yang hanya separuh jalan.. lebih elok merindui sahabat dari merindui kekasih yang bukan milik kita.. eh forget.. semalam ramai nak jadik scandal.. bahaya betul.. of coz shiro tak layan sangat plus cerita topik lain.. but penat la bercinta macam ni, asyik shiro je tunggu call.. maybe patut berhenti menunggu... biarlah masa menentukan semuanya.. bunga bukan sekuntum kumbang bukan seekor... ^__^

demo silat di sunway-ronaldinho

perasan tak? bulan may paling banyak post kan? rasanya malas nak tulis untuk beberapa hari ni.. tapi nanti Myra tanye pulak.. bila nak cerita lagi.. huhu..eh lupa.. tajuk lari.. hehe (saja je nak bagi panjang.. nanti myra cakap, pendeknya, kejap je habis.. form6 pergi belajar la, yane pun sama.. ika tu lagi sorang.. jangan asyik baca buku je, bukak blog chi ye junior.. tension woo kalau asyik study je)

kenapa tajuknya ronaldinho? bukan pemain bola sepak tu la... ni nama betul dia dah lupa.. kan chi dah janji dalam cerita takiya tu.. ada masa nanti chi cerita pasal mamat ni.. puas jugak lacari and baca balik diary lama.. maklum la benda dah jadi tahun lepas.. hehe.. tanpa membuang masa, dipersembahkan filem melayu terhebat tahun lepas. kelakar lagi sensasi.. ye nak mula la ni..nak intro lelame pun tak boleh.. adoyaiii... ni chi copy bulat-bulat plus wat renew ejaan je la ek.. takkan korang paham kot bahasa chi yang unik.. XD




date : 27 june 2010
subject : diary - sleep over and demo

Hari Jumaat (25/6) aku tidur dekat rumah yani sampai hari ahad (27/6). Malam Jumaat tu aku berlatih demi demo sabtu malam ahad dekat dato harun Sunway. Aku dah berusaha, tapi stil gagap time buat tu. Bila aku salah satu step, terus pandangan aku kabur. Aku rasa nak pengsan then aku asyik buat salah. After dah kuar dari gelanggang tu, terus aku menangis dekat tebing. Yani datang and buat aku ketawa. jangan bunuh diri wei.. haha.. then die nyanyi lagu lolipop.. aku cakap la, kau ni ganggu mood nak nangis la..teruss ketawa.. Ai n kak el main keris betul malam tu.. fuyoo..

Then Sam cakap aku kacau budak-budak tu nak tengok bile aku join budak kecik panjat tembok. yani pun duduk atas tu kat sebelah aku. But tetibe je ade orang tegur aku "Dik ade cacing kat baju adik" (lebih kurang la ayat tu, tak ingat sangat) then aku tanye la "mane?" (sambil cari) tetibe je die cakap ape taw? "1-0" sengal punya budak! dah la tu die cakap, apa punya pesilat la, tu pun percaya. nak tahu apa aku balas? "biase la, terlampau baik hati sampai percaya dekat semua orang..." semua gelak kat aku..then dia balas "kus semangat abang" terus aku pandang arah lain. then dia still panggil lagi.. dia nak bagi teka teki.. aku jerit.. "tak nak dengar, tak nak dengaaar" but still die cakap
lima jari jadikan satu

aku suruh yani dengan sam tolong jawab. sam pulak mengada-ngada nak bagi teka teki at yani. sengal punya kawan. 1st aku jawab penumbuk, 2nd aku jawab pelempang.. dedua salah.. jawapannya lima batang mancis disusun memanjang. kebetulan diorang (daneko's) blah, aku pun apa lagi.. lari kejar diorang..

sebenarnya aku stillnak tengok demo.. tapi diorang tak nak teman aku masuk sebab diorang kata mamat tadi usha aku. then aku yani and sampergi tengok at pintu penonton. ramai sangat sampai tak nampak cikgu azam.. almost forget, abang nas  pwn ade. dia jadi cameraman.

Then aku tarik sam pergi hujung baru nampak. Pastu ada pula budak laki asyik menyampuk asal aku cakap. lagi la kecoh diorang cakap chiyo kena usha...bila ayahnda sampai kitorang pergi at kereta. Ayahnda tanya nak balik ke? then aku cakap la, tak baik tinggal majlis separuh jalan. then kitorang pun masuk balik. kitorang makan sikit. aku and sam kene tolong amik air untuk diorang. terkejut aku bile tengok abang ahmad yang tolong tuang. kesian dia, cawan dia kosong lagi. sam amik dulu cawan then pass2 dekat cikgu mail, yani, el n ai. dua cawan last aku sorang tinggal. sam tunggu depan sikit. then abang ahmad cakap kat aku, "RM2" hek eleh kenakan aku pulak. diorang boleh gelakkan aku. pastu ayahnda hilang, and abang nas datang and bertegur sapa dengan diorang. aku dah cukup segan rasa nak lari. but something happen, cikgu azam join la pulak.

Then time nak tolong buang sampah diorang tunjuk la at belakang diorang. el tanye la nie tempat pembuangan haram ke? diorang kata halal. Nanti ada orang tolong kutip. Aku cakap la kat kak el, buang sampah merata-rata kan dosa. boleh pulak diorang menyampuk yang ni tak dosa..

Then Daneko's semua interview budak-budak ayahnda. aku malas join. Kebetulan abang Ahmad at sebelah. Die tanya "ayahnda mane?" "tu la pasal.. tak nampak" aku balas.. then ade suara "ayahnda je ke? kekanda taknak?" guess who?
Cacing 1-0 la... aku jawab la, setakat ni tak perlu lagi" siap pakat dengan kawan dia kali ni "Abang long?" "saya dah ada abang, diorang je tak de" haha... then aku kemas pinggan and cawan and duduk sebelah abang ahmad. aku ingat diorang cakap bear besar dari beg, so aku balas la, "biasalah baby saya" then dia boleh cakap bear aku tu "anak kita kan?" aku terus cakap anak aku seorang. =P

Then dia buat isyarat pelik. aku straight to the point "saya ni dah la lurus bendul.. bagitau je la" rupanya dia nak no phone or email. aku suruh diorang cari sendiri. dia tanya nama aku, aku cakap rahsia. then bila dia tanye umur aku. aku cakap la rasa-rasanya? then dia boleh bantai "mana boleh rasa, kalau tak dah lama abang rasa" dah la diorang gelak jahat.. malu gila aku, terus aku jerit "agak-agak la"

Nasib baik ayahnda muncul. aku terus lari dapatkan ayahnda. Ai ada bagitau aku, lepas aku lari, diorang nampak macam nak serang ai. itu yang ai pun blah cepat sebelum diorang tanya pasal aku. kitorang sembah hormat at semua kawan ayahnda (main ikut je). nasib baik tak pergi tempat abang ahmad tadi. Aku asyik cakap at ayahnda nak balik je. Then Daneko's asyik cakap chiyo popular la. ramai ngorat. boleh plak ayahnda bagitau 1-0 tu anak murid cikgu ismadi. then pergi mcD. aku ngan ai kene order coz kitorang je yang biase makan dekat mcD. dapat la ole-ole gelas yang akan menjadi  tanda persahabatan kitorang and ayahnda. sedih pulak bila fikir hari terakhir berjumpa ayahnda.

Baru kitorang tahu, Ayahnda sayang kitorang sebab kitorang la anak murid dia yang first. lagi pun sunyi kalau tak ada kitorang especially kak el yang paling tua and paling tak matang. (ayahnda kata out of list) tak habis lagi. die cakap pulak pasal 1-0. Mamat tu orang panggil ronaldinho.. taw sebab ape? Yani kata dia botak. salah. setahu aku ngan sam, dia ada jambul. sebenarnya mamat tu.. gigi dia mancung. hahaha.. aku cakap la, tak baik kutuk dia... kitorang sampai rumah pukul 1pagi. (umah kak el)

tapi aku rasa susah hati. aku tak boleh lupa apa dia (ronaldinho) buat. maybe sebab aku selalu teringin ada orang buat macam tu. tapi tak sangka ramai pulak yang buat. sampai aku takut and tak boleh tidur. tapi Takiya tak pernah buat apa-apa. TT~TT

tapi aku rasa budak perempuan yang ada dekat sana sombong la.. time aku tengok diorang, diorang pandang slack. padahal zon 2 and kayu ara je ada perempuan. jangan la sombong (kitorang zon 2) budak lelaki pun ada yang pandang. rasanya sebab perangai aku yang kebudak-budakan time tu or sebenarnye diorang tengok kak el ngan ai main keris betul. diorang pulak guna keris kayu. ayahnda yang bagitahu..


tamat sudah diari shiro ni.. tu la kisahnye.. malas betul menaip sejak jadi admin..XD

love story..

well.. pagi semalam.. he send request open relationship at my FB acc.. ingat saje-saje..then i just approve it.. but after sometimes.. i ask him.. kenapa send request tu? simple je answer dia.. "saya suka suara awak.. tak lena tidur kalau tak dengar" sengal!!! haha.. but then feel funny and laugh all by myself.. eh forget.. dia rakam suara shiro taw.. huhu..malunya.. gediik je rase suara tu..even fad pun dengar dah... jahat la diorang..

he keep calling me for hours.. and this morning..she call me and wait till i fell asleep.. ^////^ but not like all of you think..hes not sweet at all.. coz he keep saying... tak best la tido sorang.. tak ada kawan nak bertumbuk... sengal.. then he said.. i should listen to him otherwise makan sup kaki.. jahat right? TT~TT then dia cakap basuh kaki dia cepat.. well.. i just said.. "if like this i think u should find the one that can listen to ur order.." hehe..

umur? well.. actually first he keep saying 47.. but now he said 20.. coz he really 20.. still nak panggil dia pakcik je rasanya..XD but HH pun ada hantar wallpost untung la ada orang sayang.. then i just reply.. well dulu ngorat die, die yang tak nak.. hehe.. then kak faizah cakap dia jual mahal..actually memang tak pernah pun cakap dekat HH.. coz he said BFF.. how come i bear to lose him as friend.. plus rasanya tak salah cuba mencintai orang yang ikhlas right.. im just a girl that need love.. not to love others..

then i just talk with abang azzam.. he keep saying.. jangan couple lama-lama.. tak elok.. well were not couple. we just in an open relationship. then just get married..hehe well.. not sure if he think like that..coz now i keep feeling bored and waiting for my phone to rang.. TT^TT

he just cast a spell.. well should i type the spell? hmm.. let it be a secret.. then he said he didnt like calling sayang but then he keep call me like that..errr.. i just use name or saya awak.. coz feel awkward... next week hes going to kedah.. no more time for me.. he said he will miss me.. but i dont think so.. maybe he will find someone that made for him.. and im not good enough for him... im just too afraid that he leave me like takiya.. it hurts me more.. what did i do to him until he leave me without saying anything.. he left me hanging..tought that i wont fall.. but now.. near to fall in love land.. help me to stop love anyone before im sure hes mine..

shiro chiyo miss gloomy that need a sun to shine the moon.. and to make star alive.. love me but f=dont hurt me.. its pain and i cant hold it anymore..

bukit cahaya

haish.. ingat lagi..dulu nama tempat ni bukit cerakah.. hehe.. eh nak cerita la ni.. kak el dengan lagi dua kawan die (lupa tanya nama) then dengan Ai.. pergi sana taw.. pagi-pagi dah tepon.. errr.. macam biase.. phone tak function.. dengar je pintu bilik dikuak dah terbangun.. kacau betul.. nak tidur balik dah dengar ayat ni "Bangun! Ai tepon tu.. tepon henfon tak reti angkat" adoi...dengan ngantuk plus mamai terpaksa turun.. hehe.. apa lagi.. bermula la episod bangun 9pagi..XD

keluar 10.30pagi.. mak oi.. biase time tu baru nak bangun.. maklum la suka tidur 7pagi.. so then main jalan-jalan sampai gak dekat sana.. tiket masuk bagi pengetahuan semua.. murah je.. rm3 seorang.. tapi tadi ada renovation la.. so tak dapat masuk rumah 4musim.. then of coz jalan kaki and naik bas je kat situ.. bas + Ikal? lupa la tu.. chi tak de lesen basikal... dah la tak sarapan.. masuk je hutan.. dah boleh bau daun-daun and pokok hutan.. siap terbau air kolam..adoi..sensitif betul..

lepas tu kan.. kitorang naik menara pantau tu.. (memandai je letak nama..dah lupa) huhu...gayat la.. 1st sebab tangga dasat sangat.. 2nd tinggi.. 3rd pasal kayu je.. ramai plak tu... rasa macam nak runtuh.. diorang gelakkan chi sebab  chi duk peluk tiang je..XD lepas tu jalan punya jalan plus testing macam-macam benda... sampai la kedai terdekat.. sebab pakat dahaga.. plus dah sampai sana..lapar pulak.. so beli megi skali.. klaka time nak makan.. tengok berok band! haha.. satu geng berok..siap jalan dua kaki relax je.. jalan macam manusia..XD nasib baik abang yang menjual tu tolong jaga.. kalau tak mau lapo tak jadi makan.. hehe

lepas tu kena naik bas lagi.. haha.. kelakar taw coz ada ramai perempuan lalu bawak bakul..XD die duk jeling sampai kak el cakap, "saya ni comel sangat ke sampai akak pandang macam tu.." XD then dah sampai taman haiwan tu kan.. ada satu sankar kosong. baru je chi tanya kat ai tak nampak pun burung.. chi ternampak iguana.. apa lagi..cabut la... hehe.. errr lepas tu tengok rusa.. eh rusa kan ai? comei.. then jalan sampai ke stable.. semua down.. terseksa tengok kuda kuda dekat situ.. macam sakit je.. huhu.. eh tapi kan.. ai kelakar.. dia terkejut nampak tugu kuda tu..XD paling kelakar lepas tengok kuda tu dari tempat rehat tu..baru sedar..kecik je pun kuda gergasi tu..XD dah la mata and mulut lain macam bak kata ai.. hehe

hehe.. lepas puas dah round..kitorang nak balik.. yang kelakarnya sempat lagi diorang mengumpat.. hehe.. ayat chi je la chi letak..yang lain takyah.. "eh saya pun nak jadi model.. saya kalau make up lagi lawa.. hehe.. dah la tengok anak orang comey2... anak orang putih pun ada... siap cinderella tertinggal kasut.. (kasut budak mana entah) hehe,.. then balik kawan kak el yang drive..

nak pergi McD 22.. then kitorang boleh terlepas lorong sampai ke padang jawa.. kelakar tak? hehe.. lepas tu nasib baik chi ingat lorong kanan tu.. sebab nampak macam familiar sikit anyway cerita dah sampai mcD semua dah selamat.. but.. nak balik rumah sekali lagi sesat..hehe.. adoi.. sebab terlepas lorong biasa tu la.. macam2 la.. kalau nak cerita pasal balik rumah panjang sangat so tutup story.. memalukan.. especially menyalahgunakan hazard.. XD nasib la nak buat macam mana..pakat sorok muka.. malu kot..salah jalan selamba main belah jalan..XD

my new world..

i hate this feeling.. when everything i wish wont come true..since become admin page.. feel more sad and depressed than before... chi dah mula kurang chat dengan sahabat2 chi.. dah lah tu, semuanya serba tak kena..terasa seolah-olah chi xwujud.. walaupun hakikatnya memang shiro chiyo tak pernah wujud.. sekadar gelaran yang diberi sahabat. entahlah.. mungkin chi patut hidup di dunia realiti..

kadang-kadang chi rase menyesal jadi admin page.. bukan selalu.. cuma kadang-kadang.. sebab tu dulu chi dah ckp jgn amik banyak admin.. chi tahu.. dalam serasi akan ada yang tak serasi.. chi jenis yang nakkan perhatian plus chi tak suka diabaikan.. macam tak wujud.. chi cuba delete dari jadi admin.. tapi tak boleh.. kene ada password.. tapi chi berjaya jugak.. guna password sendiri pun boleh.. but lepas tu jadi balik admin.. haishh.. tak sampai hati pulak dekat si cawan ni... mungkin dah suratan takdir chi seumur hidup tolong orang..

entah berapa lama lagi perjalanan ni. chi dah mula sakit balik.. mungkin sebab tertekan. chi dah tak normal.. chi susah nak bernafas and selalu pening.. agak-agak sampai bila chi mampu rahsiakan dari family chi? takkan seumur hidup nak sorok dalam bilik ni.. terasa tertekan.. chi rasa biarlah sampai sini je malam ni.. nak type pun rasa penat. chi terlalu jujur ke dalam blog ni? maaf lah.. chi dah tak taw nak luah dekat siapa.. mida dah jarang contact.. chi dah makin teruk mida...chi sakit balik.. chi doakan semua sahabat hidup lebih lama dari chi.. insyallah amin.. nyawaku tak usahlah panjang kerna mereka lebih berharga.. yang kusayangi..

story lagi...

huhu... its always bout me.. coz this is my 2nd diary..XD well pukul 1.30 rasanye.. kak el pop up at chi punya chatbox.. she said "Shiro! jom keluar. kita naik teksi je la" adoyai... then dok tangguh2 sampai lewat chi sampai situ.. huhu.. pergi mana? PKNS je la.. then cari tudung untuk kak el.. then sebab chi lapar sangat..so chi pergi la McD... makan at situ.. but then she said "aku puasa la" haha.. so chi dengan adik die je makan..

eh lupa nak gitau.. kebetulan baju chi and adik die sama.. so jadi bodyguard tadi.. plus benda paling best sebab kak el sangat baik.. bila chi minta dia punya glass coke mcD die bagi.. hehe..she said coz i accompany her so she give it to me.. thank you so much my best and ever sister!

tapi lepas balik tu kan.. chi sakit perut.. kenapa? sebab chi xmakan dari pagi.. then terus sumbat mcD ngan air coke.. tak cukup air lagi.. chi kebas air adik die.. malas nak refill since kene turun tangga.. lega dapat minum.. hehe

but tak semuanya indah.. coz dalam senyum ada pilu.. nampak happy.. tapi chi still sedih.. chi tak suka lagi page tu.. seakan berat penerimaannya.. bukan setakat ayat tu buat chi teringat takiya.. tapi page tu buat chi makin menjauh dengan realiti kehidupan.. asyik berharap takiya jadi king sampai bila? chi tak nak terus hidup dalam bayangan tu.. huh

before i forgot.. just now niwa send me messages.. he said he will futher his study.. at sabak bernam.. but i didnt ask much.. just wish him a congrats.. whatever happen he still my best friend.. still count as bf right? haha... dont too close wif me.. XD

feel tired now..

ehem2.. 2 days before.. satu perubahan besar berlaku sampai chi kene demam hari ni.. ape? chi dilantik menjadi admin 2 page..
Kami Suka On9 Tengah Malam..:p
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agak kelam kabut gak la memula.. sebab tak pernah buat kan.. tak sama macam group.. but then seronok plak sampai tak cukup tidur.. tu yang demam sikit.. but sekurang-kurangnya ade gak yang menghargai usaha chi.. ag cakap chi berusaha keras dah coz asalnya time chi join shiro orang ke 4.. sekarang dah nak cecah 400.. huhu.. but yane wat lawak seyh.. die asyik menyamar jadi chi sampai likers keliru..
ohya yesterday mornink time chi on9 then kak el pwn on9.. she ask me whether im busy or not.. dah taw dah die nak ajak ke gelanggang so jawab la free.. well petang tu dapat gak chi visit sam mom.. huhu.. terharu coz kwn die yg first dapat pergi.. sam terharu.. XD we love u sam.. no matter what.. were always best friend.. sorry selalu bully time primary school..
then malam tu pergi gelanggang dengan hafiz skali..kak el and hafiz, they looks like couple. kitaorang singgah pasar malam dulu.. then macam biasa.. chi kena makeover sam.. then dah sampai gelanggang semua malu2 meow except kak el.. plus abg boy pwn dah byk brubah.. rambut die skunk spiky... eh i forgot.. hafiz dah ade gf.. XD then time nak balik tu kitaorang sesat.. nasib baek sampai area subang mas.. XD

eh hujan plak.. takot kilat.. TT^TT tapi ade story lagi ni.. huhu..
hari ni.. shiro sakit kepala.. rasa nak pecah.. memang elok pun hujan suh tido cepat.. XD papai pembaca kesayangan shiro.. myra, ali, ai, echah, yani, yane, ika n sume la.. xtermampu nak sebut satu2 dah..

burden for my angel..

first story, i just try this contest.. just like miss who got more like or love.. but then i see everyone got more liker than me.. ya i know all their friend who votes... but then still hate it.. its not fair.. if im wear like them i can win too.. okay fine.. im jealous.. not that i hate it.. im jealous coz im not good in promoting my vote.. XD

second story.. today too, i got other contest.. teka teki also known as quiz...oh before i forgot, kak el ask me whether we should go 4 gelanggang or not.. ya, coz 9jun their going to pahang.. like usual..demo.. eh of coz i say yes... i really miss that place,.. since i left gelanggang, i never meet takiya anymore... really miss his smile...

3rd story. ya still got story..this one i thought wanna use malay but then im afraid got too many mistake.. since im not good in lingua,, one boy (of coz not my bro) he call his mom asking for money.. but then his mom said she had no money.. so he keep saying ************** too much too type.. plus must b censored.. then he keep saying dont let that B***H ask bout him, and if he dies dont she (his mom) ever dare to step or see his graveyard.. how come he said like that.. i always wish my mom will always b with me, coz she my heaven.. my angel... shes my everything...

and last story since all of u must b tired reading my bad english.. im still in bad condition..my illness just came back.. welcome sick papai my health.. huhu.. maybe coz im too worried about everything and think too much.. please dont pressure me..im too scared wif everything... everyone keep blaming each other.. they keep telling that teen like me just a burden.. but no matter what.. i cant say they a burden.. coz i really cant live without them... please dont say im a burden..